Today's post is going to be girly and talking about makeup/skin stuff, so if any guys happen to be reading this today, sorry!
So I am very self conscious about my face because I have some pretty big pores and also have mild rosacea, so my cheeks and chin are always a bit red. I've always treated my face pretty horribly (not removing makeup really, not wearing sunscreen or really any moisturizer), and to be honest I think it was part of my low self esteem when I was heavier. As my weight has dropped I've had more and more urges to take care of other aspects of my appearance, and I've really committed to taking better care of my skin for the last 7 months or so. I have a set routine both in the mornings and evenings, wear sunscreen daily and have been really, really good about removing my makeup at night. This is pretty huge for me and while I don't want a head pat for basic adulting, I'm pretty proud for sticking to a skincare routine for the first time ever. I am not a girly girl really, so forcing myself to take the time to "foo-foo" as my mom calls it goes against my nature. As a result of my routine though the redness has lessened some and my skin doesn't feel tight anymore because it's actually moisturized! I've also started getting carded again a bit more, which feeds my vanity and encourages me to keep doing my routine!
I decided to take things a step further and do a new goal that's a bit scary (or a bit scary as a lady anyways!) and that's to try to go makeup free* for the month of April. (*I will likely still wear mascara during the week since that isn't contributing to my skin issues, and since my eyes are something I like to highlight. I don't wear lipstick or gloss anymore anyways, so I'll just stick with my SPF balm.) I know this is a very frivolous thing to have as a goal, but it is a bit of a stretch goal for me since I am so self conscious about the redness in my face. I don't want to show up to work looking like I crawled out of Mordor, but my skin has some issues that I think are related to wearing foundation and I just have the feeling if I just bit the bullet and went without foundation for awhile that my skin would improve gradually. I always notice my skin looks happiest by the end of Sunday when I've been makeup free all weekend.
It will be kind of scary to go without makeup, I know that sounds vapid and silly, but women are conditioned from birth that you don't look "put together" without it, and I'm no different. I don't really care on the weekends when I'm just running around locally, but work will be challenging. You just have these thoughts of wondering if people will think something is wrong with you, if you'll be treated differently at work, all kinds of craziness that will likely not happen. I just keep telling myself that I'm still the same person, still kick ass at my job and that the state of the world won't crumble if I don't wear makeup! At the end of the day I have red cheeks, it's not like I'm the Elephant Man, so I think doing an experiment like this will be a good reminder of that. Also, ironically April is Rosacea Awareness Month! I didn't pick April as a challenge month knowing that, so it seems a bit like fate.
I picked up a couple of different products that vary from my normal skin routine, basically more geared towards sensitive skin. I'll have to post updates (and of course selfies) on how things go!