Happy St. Patrick's Day everyone! I usually do a big traditional corned beef, potato and cabbage meal for St. Pat's but since all I can eat lately are air, kale and flowers, no dice for me. :( Have a green beer for me folks!
My weigh in this week was depressing but expected.
Previous Weight: 193.2
Today's Weight: 194.8
Difference: +1.6 pounds
This week has been a struggle, and a few things are factoring in. The main factor is that I've been having major lady woes this week, like worse than I've ever had, and I have felt incredibly weak and tired. I can't bring myself to do more than our work walks, and even those feel like a huge effort. The minute I wake up I feel exhausted and I've struggled to stay awake past 7 pm every night this week. I've also had the typical hunger urges that come with it all and have snacked more than I should.
The weather here is also starting to get to me and make me feel depressed. I've never ever experienced traditional seasonal disorder, in fact usually it's heat and summer that causes that depression, but this year has been the opposite. We've had nonstop rain 90 something out of 100 something days, and I have to admit it's starting to get to me. I feel cold all of the time (again, never happened before), and I just feel kind of depressed. I want to be outside working in my yard and taking walks, but the rain makes it a miserable experience. We are supposed to get a couple of nice days starting today, but it's almost more depressing because after that we're heading right back into a rainy streak.
That's all a very long winded way of saying that I expected a gain this week since I've snacked too much and haven't been exercising the way I should.
Things are basically going well, I still feel a bit thrown for a loop and like I eat the same 5 things every day, but physically I'm feeling good. I had a blip where my positive symptoms kind of regressed, which made me incredibly depressed since the nutrition part is so hard, and it would suck to have to change so much for nothing. But things got "moving" again, so I calmed the eff down about it. It's sad how excited I get about it, but you have no idea how good it is to feel normal and like I'm not damaging my body.
I do think the diet is leading to my age old resentments over restriction, which causes binge tendencies in me. I hardcore reason with myself every day that this is a temporary situation and that I need to deal with these feelings as best I can and not go overboard.
Just to end on a funny note, a really long time ago I wrote about this horrible reaction that I had to Vega One protein powder, this was literally back in 2013. I guess what perversely amuses me is that post after all this time continues to be the thing that drives a significant amount of traffic to my blog, and searches about Vega One poisoning continue to result in my blog popping up in the number one spot in a Google search.
I still get comments on that post, a couple this week in fact which is what prompted my musing about this, and it's from 2013! It's amazing to me that they still sell that protein powder when it makes people so sick, and if you're one of the aforementioned people who found my blog because of Vega One, sorry about your vomshits. I can't even look at cans of that powder in the store without my stomach cramping at the memory of that horror.