Monday, October 19, 2015

Shifting Gears

Thank you all so much for your kindness the last few hours.  I've gotten a lot of nice messages from readers, friends and family over my decision to drop down to the half marathon this November.  It really helps to get everything out in the open.  I've been carrying around a lot of shame and anxiety for the last couple of months, it felt good to let it go and talk about it.  I feel like I can actually blog more that I've been real with you guys and I'm not having to dance around what's going on in my life.

I feel happier by the moment about my decision, and couldn't wait to get on the computer today to pull up my training plan and rework it to fit training and conditioning for the half.  I haven't felt this level of enthusiasm for quite awhile, and it is such a relief.  I'm not going to lie, seeing single digit numbers on my training plan makes me pretty happy!  My long run this week is 7 miles, and I am going to knock that out on Wednesday since our friend Lee is coming in to visit us this week, so that way I'll just have a short 4 miler on Saturday that I can knock out quickly so that I can go out sightseeing with the guys!

This change in plans is also what I need to get me back in the head space to focus on my nutrition, which has been absolutely atrocious since all of this has happened.  I've tried time and time again this month to recommit, but it's just been so stressful that it's easy to justify not tracking, eating a comforting dessert or having a drink or three to wind down from the stress.  Luckily I've only gained back about 5 pounds, but that's 5 pounds too many especially since I am in the 100s and want to stay there!  I tracked my food for today and plan on going grocery shopping tonight to have healthy options on hand for this week.  I feel so clear headed and calm today about everything, and I'm actually excited to get back on track and back to normal.

Our weekend was pretty busy, on Saturday after the whole run/breakdown drama we went to a longtime friend's house for his annual horror movie marathon party.  Will is adorably geeky about horror movies and Halloween, and every year he throws a fantastic party with a curated list of horror films, usually grouped by theme.  The party starts at 10:30 am (always kicked off with a Simpson's Treehouse of Horrors) and goes well until the wee hours of the morning.  I am not the biggest horror movie person and have to be careful about what I watch or I will have insane nightmares, but we go anyway lol.  We got there at about 2:30 and stayed until 6, and I managed to sit through half of Babadook, the entirety of The Town That Dreaded Sundown and half of The Purge all while eating my weight in Reese's pumpkins and 7 layer dip.  The theme of this year's evening movies was home invasions, so I noped right out of the night time movies since it was too realistic for me.  We had a great time and it was nice to catch up with Will since I hadn't seen him in awhile.

Sunday I had my shelter shift, which was a bit hectic due to the laundry and dishes.  I'm also a bit sad because I have a favorite there named Nelson who has yet to be adopted.  He is a giant pitbull with a giant head, so that probably hurts his chances, but he's incredibly sweet and smart.  I wish someone would take him home, he's such a good boy (I call him my pumpkin head baby boy when no one is around).  Hopefully the next time I go into the shelter he will have found a home.  That afternoon we did our annual pumpkin patch tradition, which is really more about me getting a caramel apple than it is getting pumpkins.  ;)  We had a great time, bought a ton of apples and I got my caramel apple.  Actually it was the lamer "apple nachos", which was just basically apple slices with caramel dip, but I suppose it got the job done.

After a nap and a nice dinner we went to a concert in Portland to see this punk band called Death.  There was a documentary done on them a year or so ago, titled A Band Called Death, and you REALLY should see it.  Basically it's these 3 black brothers from Detroit who had a punk band in the 70's that predated the Ramones, but since they refused to change their name, no one would sign them to a record deal.  They kind of quietly faded away, but then vinyl collectors discovered their album and they have had this cult following for the last few years and didn't even know about it!  The documentary is really fascinating, a fantastic story and also oddly very spiritual.  I highly recommend it even if you aren't necessarily the biggest music fan, because it's such a great human story.


The best part is?  Their music and this rediscovered album are pretty fantastic, and I've been digging it for over a year or so.  When I saw they were coming to Portland I was super excited, so we got tickets.  It's so much fun seeing bands in small clubs, which we rarely do.  It's just exciting to be close to the music, it's a whole different vibe and energy.  Death was fantastic, you can tell they are very humbled by the experience and are very happy to be playing their music.  I was so happy we went, even though it was WAY past my bedtime!

Well folks, that's it for now, but I will be keeping you posted throughout the week on my eating plans as well as my training plan!

6 comments:

  1. I had some serious thoughts of caramel apples today so I had the "lamer apple nachos" (actually it was apple slices with caramel dip) and they were yummy :) Love that you are getting in a better head space and I look forward to following your training.

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    1. I love my traditional caramel apple every October. The "nachos" are good, it's just more that I like the experience of the traditional caramel apple where you have to unhinge your jaw like a python to eat it. ;)

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  2. Woo hoo to being in a better place for your running and eating!
    I cannot abide horror movies at all, so kudos to you for even attempting to watch some. It sounds like you had a fabulous weekend. And hell yeah to a band from the D!

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    1. With horror movies it totally depends. I hate the gory stuff, I would much rather a psychological thriller. I cannot watch anything that could actually happen (ie the home invasion ones) for obvious reasons!

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  3. Thanks so much for sharing that band Death. I had never heard of them and they are really, really good. I love the diversity of their sound and I am going to seek out their album now that I have heard most of it on youtube.

    It also sounds like that load off your shoulders has already had an effect. Your new post already sounds more upbeat and snarky like the ones we read in the past. So glad that the burden lifted is letting the old Mary to shine through a little more now. :-)

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    1. Oh I'm so glad you like them! It''s hard to describe their sound to people, it's kind of like the Ramones but much grittier and frantic, and I would almost put it closer to metal than punk. Regardless, they are so great. If you have not seen the documentary, you should, it's seriously one of the most uplifting stories I've heard about a band. And yes, things are definitely good this week. I have a 4 miler today that I happily packed my outfit for and will be doing right after work. And, it's chilly/raining! Yay!

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