Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Where Do You See Yourself?

So I was trying to find a video clip that would illustrate what I was doing after my weigh in this morning, and I think I found the perfect one...

Three days of being on point has paid off, and I stepped on the scale this morning and weighed in at 204 pounds!  Funny enough, the last time I was this low was on February 3rd when I was 205.8, so I guess we'll just ignore the fact it took me exactly a month to lose 1.8 pounds.  I'm just glad that I feel normal again and like I found my determination to keep going forward.  And to have the 100's within reach is beyond amazing, I am so excited!!  It's been such a long road, but I am so far away from the sad girl who was 250 pounds.  I'm still not where I need to be, but I'm in a better place than I was.

I have been taking measurements once a month instead of weekly and today was measurement taking day as well.  I lost about an inch in my hips but was up in my bust/waist from last month.  I definitely need to continue with toning exercises and just exercise period in order to tighten things up and keep losing inches.  Although at 35 years old I don't know how much tightening will actually be happening.  ;)

Yesterday was a great exercise day, I did a 2.5 mile walk with Molly, then came home and did Stomach Formula and a STTO.  Any day that contains double Richard is a good day my friends.  I also ate much healthier than I have been, plus I stayed under my macros for the day.  I didn't feel hungry, I didn't snack or eat bigger portions than I was supposed to, I just felt normal for the first time in a long time.

My interview yesterday was...interesting.  I don't want to give too many details, only because if the people who interview me happen to search and find the blog, yada yada.  There was no testing because she was "too busy" and I basically got about 18 minutes in the interview.  I was a bit taken aback at the vibe and I'm not sure how well I did.  Also is it just me or is "where do you see yourself 5 years from now" the oddest interview question there is?  I suppose if you are a very driven person with specific goals you may be able to answer that.  Maybe it's the Sagittarius in me, but I don't know what to expect in my life 5 months from now, much less 5 years.  Is that bad?  I just sort of feel like it's a pointless question, and I'm not sure how to answer it.  I feel like the vague answers that I've been coming up with are not what they're looking for.  What is the interviewer looking for when they ask that exactly?  That I'm not an unmotivated slob?  I'm just not sure what I'm supposed to say that's a satisfactory answer, because honestly, any answer I spit out is going to be kind of inauthentic because I just don't create those kind of long term goals.  I never have, I've never sat down and been like, "A year from now I'll be this, 5 years I'll be here, etc".  I mean 5 years ago I actually loved my old job and thought I'd be there until the end of time, and we see how well that turned out.  I have plenty of goals in my life but they don't really relate to work.  When I spat some of those out yesterday, it was sort of like "that's great but what are your professional goals?"

I wish you could be completely honest in an interview.  Like in a professional way, but still honest.  Because honestly, my goal is to just settle somewhere at a laid back office that will allow me to do my work without a bunch of micromanaging and doesn't consume my life.  I am a very hard worker, very organized and competent, smart and don't like drama.  I want to go in, put my head down for 8 hours and then get out.  I don't have interest in constantly striving to move up the ladder, I just want a mutual understanding that I'm loyal and a hard worker, a good worker, will typically go above and beyond but that the things that drive me and motivate me are everything that comes after hours.  My very happy marriage, my crazy dog, my family and my running/fitness goals.  That is where my satisfaction in life lies.  I wish I could be one of those ball busting, got get 'em, lean in type career women, but I'm just really not.  It's probably the result of watching my parents both be at the same jobs for 30+ years, and they are of a similar personality of "if I'm content and have a good thing going, then I'll be here till I'm dead" kind of vibe going for me.  There are times where I really wonder if I made a mistake in my career choices, I kind of feel like I've been off the rails for the past 12 years or so.  I've never had that job of where I've been like, "oh man I live to get up every day and do what I'm doing."  But does anyone really?  I am completely and totally Peter from Office Space.

Well I guess if anyone interviewing me does find the blog, then oops, I guess I just gave plenty of insight into my non-existent 5 year goals.  Ah well.

I'm going to end with some pictures.  First is of my crazy ass dog, who despite just about falling out after having a 2.5 mile walk still found the energy to harass me as I'm trying to do aerobics.  She lives to stand directly in my path when I'm trying to do my Richard tapes for some reason.

And then on the flip side, she turned into a roach this morning.  Note that I angled the camera to give her some privacy and not show her entire business to every reader of the blog.  You're welcome.

And finally, a different animal.  I am babysitting my aunt's cats this week, and I just love their cat Solitare.  It's funny because normally she's very shy with people but loves me, and their other cat Domino is the outgoing one, but is very aloof and doesn't want much to do with me.  Solitare typically comes running to greet me, and is always so sweet.  I like to take selfies with her, and she decided to "kiss" me right as I snapped the pic.


  1. Awww babysitting a KITTY! She is a cutie! Miss Molly is such a picture of style and grace (except when she is reclining!)

    I know EXACTLY how you feel about your ideal job. I'm kinda in that now. Happy as a clam, I get my work done, keep out of drama and focus on the task at hand. Not exactly a go-getter either but this works for me and I couldn't be happier here. May you find that too!

  2. I love your real job goals. I feel the same way.

    And I think that it is hilarious that Molly gets in your way when you are working out. Some dogs!