Monday, February 23, 2015

Oscars

Last night was obviously the Oscars, which is something we look forward to every year.  Eric and I are both really into films and always make our best effort to see everything we can.  Sadly we missed only one best picture nominee, Selma, only because of me getting sick and being unable to leave the house!  Once I got well enough to leave the house, I was terrified I would have a coughing jag in the theater, and I definitely didn't want to be "that guy" that disrupts the movie for everyone by hacking like I have heartworms.  Anyway we saw all of the other best pic nominees so I felt pretty prepared for the awards.

Red Carpet Ready!
For the last few years we've thrown a big party for the Oscars and had a ton of people over.  This year not many people were able to make it, which was kind of a bummer.  Plus with me being sick, I was woefully unprepared and didn't do half of the stuff I normally do, like themed cocktails and themed snacks.  Pretty much it's like, here's some chips/salsa and a cheese tray, enjoy.  Eric was a huge help in helping me clean the house and vacuum/steam clean our living room carpet!  There pretty much wouldn't have been a party without his help.  Yesterday I felt like I relapsed a little bit and felt exhausted and run down to the point where I forced myself to take a nap.  It helped a little but I simply cannot shake this cough.  Anyway, we rallied as always for the party!

Best Couple, clearly!

The awards themselves were fine though I thought they were a little boring at times.  I was very excited about Eddie Redmayne and JK Simmons because both of those films/performances were my 2 favorite films of the season.  I was not excited about Best Picture really because I knew it was going to be between either Boyhood or Birdman, and I really didn't like either one of them.  I was pretty lukewarm about Birdman winning, I honestly just thought it was weird and I could never care about any of the characters enough to feel invested in it.  I didn't understand the big hoopla about it, but you know, good for them I guess.  

On the health front, I did spend the weekend working out all of my emotional stuff via gardening and being outside most of the weekend.  I decided to give myself the weekend to get all of my drinking/eating/having the sads/not tracking my food ya yas out and then start fresh today without guilt or judgement.  That's really all you can do in these times, is to try to pull yourself out of your funk as soon as you can and just move forward.  There are still some personal/non-health related things that are bothering me, but most of them are related to other people and I have to realize I have no control over them.  I just have control of me and how I react, so I've just got to push past it and do what's best for me.

I am a little sad that I lost my tracking streak on MFP, I was at 130 days or something like that.  It stings a little bit to see a "Day 1" up on the top bar, but that's a choice I made and all I can do is work on rebooting the healthy habits that I know work for me.

I decided that I am not going to weigh this week.  I know I've gained a little bit back judging by my jeans, but mentally I just don't need to know the damage right now.  Usually I like to have it in my face as a wake up call of sorts, but I feel like more than anything this week I just need to be gentle to myself and focus on being healthy and getting back into my routine.  Feeling bad about gaining isn't going to help since I already still feel a bit bad about going haywire, and I feel incredibly frustrated that I still don't feel well and can't shake this cough.  I don't know how much activity I can do, but am going to try to stick with walking and maybe doing some Richard videos since they are pretty gentle.  Anyway, if I do what I know works, whatever weight will come off, so that's that pretty much!

6 comments:

  1. Too bad about still feeling under the weather. You are making an excellent choice in not weighing in. Here's hoping you feel better ASAP. And if not, you should got to a doc because it could be pnumonia...or however the hell you spell that.

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    1. Yeah I'm going to give it a couple more days and then if the cough doesn't get better, I may have to go to the doc. It's just driving me crazy because I'll be fine all day, then around 7 at night I start coughing and losing my voice. Then when we go to bed I periodically cough and wake myself up all night. So frustrating!

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  2. I think you are doing the right thing by not weighing in too. Plus you've been sick. Cut yourself some slack! Bummer about the streak too. I recently lost mine too but you're right. Think of it as a new starting point.

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    1. Yeah I just don't feel like going down that rabbit hole of "oh God I gained all this weight" (which I honestly don't think it's that much because my jeans still fit fairly well, I just have a poochy tummy and it's not as flat as it was 2 weeks ago). I'd just rather focus on getting back on track and trying to figure out how to handle stress a little better.

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  3. You got me all fired up about gardening. I want to get out there!! I planted some seeds this weekend so that will have to hold me over for now. Hope you feel better soon :)

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    1. It's been so beautiful and sunny outside, I finally couldn't hold myself back anymore and I planted a bunch of flower seeds. I can't wait for the bees and hummingbirds to come back, they are so sweet and entertaining to watch. We have a pair of hummingbirds that visits the yard, and often they will just sit there in the middle of the flowers for a half hour or so. I'm glad they feel safe enough in the yard to just hang out!

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