|Red Carpet Ready!|
|Best Couple, clearly!|
The awards themselves were fine though I thought they were a little boring at times. I was very excited about Eddie Redmayne and JK Simmons because both of those films/performances were my 2 favorite films of the season. I was not excited about Best Picture really because I knew it was going to be between either Boyhood or Birdman, and I really didn't like either one of them. I was pretty lukewarm about Birdman winning, I honestly just thought it was weird and I could never care about any of the characters enough to feel invested in it. I didn't understand the big hoopla about it, but you know, good for them I guess.
On the health front, I did spend the weekend working out all of my emotional stuff via gardening and being outside most of the weekend. I decided to give myself the weekend to get all of my drinking/eating/having the sads/not tracking my food ya yas out and then start fresh today without guilt or judgement. That's really all you can do in these times, is to try to pull yourself out of your funk as soon as you can and just move forward. There are still some personal/non-health related things that are bothering me, but most of them are related to other people and I have to realize I have no control over them. I just have control of me and how I react, so I've just got to push past it and do what's best for me.
I am a little sad that I lost my tracking streak on MFP, I was at 130 days or something like that. It stings a little bit to see a "Day 1" up on the top bar, but that's a choice I made and all I can do is work on rebooting the healthy habits that I know work for me.
I decided that I am not going to weigh this week. I know I've gained a little bit back judging by my jeans, but mentally I just don't need to know the damage right now. Usually I like to have it in my face as a wake up call of sorts, but I feel like more than anything this week I just need to be gentle to myself and focus on being healthy and getting back into my routine. Feeling bad about gaining isn't going to help since I already still feel a bit bad about going haywire, and I feel incredibly frustrated that I still don't feel well and can't shake this cough. I don't know how much activity I can do, but am going to try to stick with walking and maybe doing some Richard videos since they are pretty gentle. Anyway, if I do what I know works, whatever weight will come off, so that's that pretty much!