Thursday, December 4, 2014

In The Closet

I'm sure you're all thankful, but I'm back to being zany and nice and not ranting.  Hopefully I didn't piss off a bunch of Dr. Phil lovers, and hopefully I reached a couple of people.  Just saying!

So hardcore bummer, but I'm fighting off some kind of weird throat/respiratory thing.  It started hitting me Tuesday evening, and yesterday I felt like dog crap all day.  I feel slightly better today, but still off.  I did manage to do all of my challenge exercises yesterday, but it was very difficult.  Mostly the burpees and the Stomach Formula stuff since I was having trouble catching my breath.  I decided to take a break from walking and work on a goal that I've had for the house, which is to start cleaning out my closet/dressers and really assessing what my clothes situation is and ruthlessly donating what I don't use.  By ruthlessly donating, I just mean being realistic about what I'm not going to wear and getting it out of my closet!

The sad fact of the matter is that I literally have no clothes, or I guess I should say I don't have any nice clothes.  I have plenty of t-shirts, but no blouses or tops.  I don't own a single sweater and my hoodies have holes in them.  My fat clothes are starting to look unflattering because they are too big, and even my bras are getting too big.  The things I have that work are literally getting holes in them from me overwearing them.  I don't have any "skinny" pants or shirts.  I hesitate to buy clothes because I don't want to spend a ton of money on things I'm going to not fit in as I continue to lose weight, but at the same time I need to have at least a couple of nicer outfits to wear to events this month like my birthday, Eric's company party, Christmas Eve, the Nutcracker, etc.  It's gotten to the point that I feel deflated when I get dressed for things like that because I look like a little street urchin from a Dickens novel.  Eric assured me that I could wear jeans and a t-shirt to his company party, but the Southern woman in me whirled around and was like um, no. You dress up for parties. My grandmother would haul butt from Heaven just to hiss "Mary, don't be tacky!" if I showed up to a Christmas party in jeans!  If I told my mom she would murmur, "Mary, that just isn't done."  I didn't get rid of all my Southernness when I moved up to the Pac Northwest people!  ;)

Today I worked on my dresser and cleaning out my t-shirts.  I have so many t-shirts with emotional ties to them, so this is always the hardest for me.  I know that sounds silly, but I have so many band shirts, including a Pearl Jam shirt that my grandmother gave me when I was in 10th grade that still fits!  At the same time there are a lot of shirts I don't wear that are taking up room, so I've just got to clean house.  Once I make a Goodwill run, then I need to bite the bullet and go shopping.  I am cheaper than all get out when it comes to clothes and hate shopping, so I'm not really jazzed about it.  Part of it is just my personality, I am not very girly and I don't like fussing around with my appearance a lot.  But the other part is that for the last 15 years I haven't really had a body that I felt was worth dolling up, in fact trying to wear pretty things almost makes me feel worse than jeans and a t-shirt.  It's just tough when you see pretty clothes you really like, but know that the dress/blouse etc is never going to fit your boobs, or your back fat is going to show, or your spare tire is going to be exposed.  Just some realness there about why I don't shop really.

I did pretty good on my dresser purge, except for when Molly decided my pile of "keeper" shirts that needed to be folded made a super awesome bed.  She thinks that just about anything we do is for her comfort.

So I had to bribe her by swapping my clothes for my pillow so that she could lay on that.  Spoiled turd.

Today's Activities:

30 Day Challenges (20 burpees, 40 second wall sit, 30 second plank)
Stomach Formula Day 4

Today's Menu:

Breakfast:  Breakfast burrito (eggs + guac)
Lunch:  Dr. Kracker flatbread, Laughing Cow cheese, hummus
Snack:  Navel orange, colby cheese snack stick
Dinner:  Turkey Sub

Musical Advent Day 4 - "Christmas in Hollis"

We actually just had this on our playlist at Thanksgiving because it's such a great song, you just can't stop yourself from dancing when you hear it.  We'll probably have it on our playlist for when we decorate our tree this weekend, because it's tradition.  God bless the 80's.


  1. Hmm you know when I was actively losing weight, I would hit up some Goodwill or resale type stores! See if they have a "Dirt Cheap" in your area too. We have one of those now and in addition to resale stuff, they also get stuff from major department stores (Kohl's, Target, JCPenney) that go out of season and you can usually tell that stuff from the others because they still have the store tags on them. Good luck with the new wardrobe! Thats a good problem to have!

    (Also hold onto those t-shirts, maybe you can find someone to make them into a quilt for you! I'm going to do that with all my too big nerdy shirts!)

  2. I'm with Desiree, hitting up thrift/resale shops is the best idea. I would also recommend New York and Company if you want to get fancy. They have pants that are super comfy, super durable (I have a pair that is eight years old and still looks great!) and have elastic waists so if you are having a bloated day they still work!

    Also, she read my mind, I was thinking the same thing about the quilt. I think there are online companies that do it, too.

    How are your planks?

    1. The planks are good, although I'm sure it's about to get real once I get to 50 seconds and above. The burpees are what I loathe more than anything in the world. I can't believe I'll have to do 100 of those SOBs at the end of the month. I don't know if doing breaks in between is allowed, but....

  3. Looks like those Dirt Cheap stores are just in the Southern region, so I'll just peek around at Goodwill. I love the quilt idea, I need to do that with my race t-shirts!