So, one of the things I like to do every day is creep the My Fitness Pal message boards. I never post anything or friend request anyone because, strangers. Well and because I'm a lone wolf who kind of likes to do my thang. Anyways, few things ever really grab me or stop to make me think, it's usually all just an excuse to mentally insert a Michael Jackson eating popcorn meme while people battle one another.
I am not ashamed to admit that I love a good internet slap fight. The battles are usually over being gluten free just for the purpose of losing weight, doing cleanses (which I also agree is BS), the proper way to lift, etc. But I actually read a post yesterday from a user that made me stop and evaluate my journey present and past, and a lot of what she said resonated with me. The post is too long to copy and paste here in full, but the gist of it is that "motivation" to work out is kind of bullshit. You do see the motivation thing thrown around a lot when it comes to weight loss, inspirational memes, quotes and whatnots. We've all seen it in our Facebook feeds. I am not really the "create a Pinterest board of bodies that inspire you" type person, but I do relate to the mentality of only being able to work out and be healthy when I am motivated to do so. It's how I used to feel, I could only work out if I was "motivated" to do so, could only eat right when I was "motivated" and consequently could only write blog posts if I was motivated by all of my other motivational shit. Taking emotion out of everything and having a "it's gotta be done" mentality has been freeing and a relief. And I'm sure that you all are thrilled that I write so consistently now, and that 90% of it is all about my clandestine love for Richard Simmons, right? RIGHT?
A couple of the quotes that stuck with me from the MFP post:
I say this all the time, Motivation is the spoonful of sugar that helps the medicine go down. Only little kids fall for that trick or need that sweet bit of help. We're adults. We take our medicine because we comprehend why we need it and so we take it.
Put aside your mindset that the only way you can workout is if you are motivated. Teach yourself to do what you need to do because you do want it. You want the change. You want to get to the other side where all this stuff makes you happy. The side where all of this is so much easier because you aren't fighting it tooth and nail.
The medicine thing especially caught me. Right now I have to take stupid blood pressure pills, and I will probably have to take them forever. I don't want to take them. But I also don't want to keel over dead with a stroke, so I take them. There is nothing noble or inspiring about it. I don't like paying bills. But, no paying bills = no roof over my head. I don't say "I'm so not motivated to pay my mortgage, I'm going to just not going to pay it for awhile." The working out started out the same way this time around. I want to drop weight and be healthy. The only way to do it is to work out and eat at a calorie deficit. The only way to maintain when I get to whatever weight is the best weight for me is to keep eating in a healthy manner and being active. Every freaking day. In other words, do what has to be done, even and especially when I "don't feel like it". I know there is nothing very romantic about that, but it's true.
It's not that I'm never inspired by people, or that I don't have moments where someones awesomeness propels me to work harder. I so admire the Kara Gouchers and Misty Copelands of the world. I am so inspired by Katie from Runs for Cookies. I don't think it's a bad thing to look to certain people, or have a body in mind that you want, or a quote that lifts you up. I think those wonderful moments are the ones that make the crappy moments less crappy. But I can't only be healthy when I'm inspired to be. Eventually that emotional gravitas fades away and I'm just left with me. And then what do I do? I've still got to do what needs to be done, whether I'm inspired or not.
So, I guess now that I've pontificated on the Internet, I can slow my roll for today. I actually do have to quit pontificating so that I can work out, lol.
Stomach Formula Day 22
Richard Simmons STTO 3
Breakfast: Runner's World Whole Grain Muffins
Lunch: Tabouli Salad
Dinner: Chicken and Rice casserole + spinach salad
Snack: Apple with peanut butter